Category Archives: Revelations

Happy New Year 2011

As the year 2010 leaves, I breathe a sigh of relief! I know that the dawning of a new year does not instantly wipe away what has transpired in the past year, however after the year I have had, I need to embrace the fresh canvas that New Years brings. 2010 has not been good to me, it was a year of many personal crisis’s that threatened to shake the very foundation that I stood upon. It seemed as though everything in my life was falling apart and I was helpless to stop it. Ministry, marriage, children, friendships…everything that meant everything to me was being challenged, it was all I could do but hold on. But before you think I gave up, I want you to know that God is faithful!!!! He stood in the fiery furnace with me and kept me from being consumed. I now know what great is His faithfulness truly means and I understand that no test means no testimony! I am being prepared for work beyond what I could ever imagine but I must be ready, how else will He know that I can help somebody if I haven’t gone through the fire. So all things really do work together for the good.

I am ready for 2011 and all that God has for me, I am breathing in newness and letting a fresh wind wash over me…it is glorious. Today I will honor the hurt and pain that brought me to the healing of a new day. I will remember no more the works of the past but press on toward the brand new day ahead. So, shake the dust off and get ready for the new…I don’t know what that will be but I do know it will be the start to greatness.

P.S. I don’t know who, if anyone reads this blog but know that you are appreciated! Everytime you click on a link, I thank you for reading what I write. There is so much out there in cyberspace, you don’t have to come here but you do. Please stay with me, I want to get to know you, I want to have a relationship, let’s come together and talk…after all isn’t that what friendship is all about?

Blessings


Not feeling it

Afternoon all:

Sorry for the lack of posts, I’m still around but not feeling like posting due to my inability to don appropriate shoes (heels!) Ever since my unfortunate accident last week my ankle still not strong enough to wear heels yet. I just am able to put pressure on my foot when I walk instead of hobbling around but it is a little swollen still as well.I am amazed at how I have responded to not being able to wear heels, instead of being relieved, I am horrified that I can’t. I never thought I was that kind of girl, who had to wear heels all the time but it seems as though I am. Go figure! And yeah, I probably should have gone to the doctor to have it looked at but it was such a little fall that I didn’t think it merited a co pay. Anyhoo, I love the blouse, I am wearing ( really it is a tunic ). It is a rich purple with dreamy, floaty dolman sleeves that turn up at the elbow with a little jewelled button. It is banded at the bottom with a bit of shirring…cute. I can’t wait to wear this with some skinny jeans or leggins and boots with a scarf thrown around my neck.


You say it's your birthday…it's my birthday too

Happy Monday ladies! Sorry for the title, it comes from the movies, Sixteen Candles (which I happen to love) and it was kinda stuck in my head! But really today is my birthday and I am so grateful to God for another year. I remember being so depressed on my 30th birthday, I couldn’t even begin to imagine what life would be like for me. Now that I am quite a few years past 30 now, I realize that I was so silly for thinking that life was virtually over for me…the best is still yet to come.

I am taking the day off (from the blog as well as my paying job), all I want is a day of sleep, reading and some good food which ends with a delicious dessert. There are always things that I want (the new Blackberry Torch, a few Fall outfits come to mind) but I can live without them. What I can’t live without is the love of God through Jesus Christ and my family (biological and chosen). So if I could make a birthday wish, I would wish that I live long enough to watch my children grow into adulthood and have an opportunity to meet each one of you.

Blessings

P.S. I will be back to posting on Tuesday, I know that I have been sort of slacking lately 🙂


You say it’s your birthday…it’s my birthday too

Happy Monday ladies! Sorry for the title, it comes from the movies, Sixteen Candles (which I happen to love) and it was kinda stuck in my head! But really today is my birthday and I am so grateful to God for another year. I remember being so depressed on my 30th birthday, I couldn’t even begin to imagine what life would be like for me. Now that I am quite a few years past 30 now, I realize that I was so silly for thinking that life was virtually over for me…the best is still yet to come.

I am taking the day off (from the blog as well as my paying job), all I want is a day of sleep, reading and some good food which ends with a delicious dessert. There are always things that I want (the new Blackberry Torch, a few Fall outfits come to mind) but I can live without them. What I can’t live without is the love of God through Jesus Christ and my family (biological and chosen). So if I could make a birthday wish, I would wish that I live long enough to watch my children grow into adulthood and have an opportunity to meet each one of you.

Blessings

P.S. I will be back to posting on Tuesday, I know that I have been sort of slacking lately 🙂


Is it enough?

I know this is a “fashion blog” but I am who I am and sometimes I gotta share what the Lord put in my spirit. Last night I went to the wake of a much loved woman. Sister Glenda Cook was my sister in Christ, so I just went to say see ya later, for those who are in Christ, we know this isn’t goodbye but until we meet again. When I arrived people were giving testimony to how much she would be missed and how she blessed their individual lives. But the one recurring sentiment that kept echoing was her smiling face, her gentle, sweet spirit and her love for the Lord. The last attribute is the one that got me thinking. I have no doubt, that Sis Glenda is with the Lord. But it made me start to contemplate, have I done enough for the name of Jesus Christ? I know that I am saved by grace and not works, however because I am saved I should want to show my love and appreciation by doing all I can to further the gospel of Jesus Christ. When it is my time to see my Redeemer, will I hear, well done thou good and faithful servant? Will I be received with joy and gladness? What legacy have I left here on Earth that will cause people to not just come “pay their respects” but to bless God for my life and how He used me in their lives. I am committed to live a life that causes no room for doubt as to not only where I will spend eternity but how much I loved Jesus while on this Earth.


Skeletons in the closet

Do you ever wonder why people have skeletons in their closet? You know what skeletons in the closet are don’t you? Those are the things about you that you share with no one, things that you have done, a situation you live with, stuff that society deems shameful and unmentionable. Well I do and I know the reason why, it’s because they have not found someone who they can share all their innermost secrets without persecution, fear, shame or judgement. We all long for someone who will love us just as we are, with secrets, scars and sins. Someone who will listen with their heart not their head and hear the feelings not the words we are saying. A person who recognizes how brave it was for you to share your heart knowing that you just might break it with one word, one look. I’m ready to open the closet doors wide, pull out each skeleton one by one, look it over for the last time then break their power by revealing what they once were and shut the door forever knowing that those skeletons in the closet have met their match…

I’m ready, are you?


The void….

My soul hurts, yeah that’s right, I said my soul. There is this place inside of me that always seems to be empty, that nothing can fill it. Not love, not hate, not joy, not sadness, not friendship, not anything, it is just there, quietly making its presence known, reminding me that something is missing. I have tried so many things to fill it, food, drink, drugs, alcohol, sex but at the end of the day…..it is still there, this lonely, empty place that I have come to know as the Void.

I know why the Void exists as much as I try to pretend that I don’t, it exists because God put it there. He created this place inside of me that no one can ever fill no matter how hard they may try or how badly I want them to. He made this emptiness too deep so that I would realize no human could ever meet that need. He wants me to know the hunger I have will never will never go away unless I turn all of this over to Him. And so after 46 years of crying, kicking, screaming….I will accept that I belong to Him first, last and always, that only He can satisfy the longing of my soul and if I allow Him to heal the broken places that live within me, the void will cease to be The Void and will begin to be my sacred place where I can be alone with the Lover of my Soul.